Journey to ALL FEMALES 2008

NEW BLOG......

2008-03-03T05:33:00.001-08:00

Hi
I've moved.

http://shartwyman.blogspot.com/

See you there
Shar x

Daily Report - Saturday

2008-03-01T04:26:00.000-08:00

Day 6 / 138 (Saturday)

Saturday ‘Stats Day' - Loss - 4.2kg
Skinfolds - Down by 19mm

Training
Bodyattack
40 minute walk

Nutrition
Planned Free Lunch and Dinner
3 Litres Water
1 litre of herbal white tea

Rest, Relaxation, Recovery
7 ½ hours sleep last night

As you can see from the nutrition above, from 20 weeks out down to 16 weeks out, I have planned a day that I allow myself Lunch and dinner of choice, I then have a change planned for 16 down to 12 etc.
Last Prep I didn’t have this as Sam, very rightly so, didn’t allow it as previous to prep starting was binging when given the opportunity to have a free meal.
Having taken a few things into account – Longer prep this time, 20 as a posed to 16, that I don’t want to come in so lean, training to max intensity all the time and the fact that due to work with Liz, plus my mind coaching session last week (yes, even after one session!!), I feel mentally able to control this.
‘normally’ I would have binged the whole day from the point I came ‘off plan’ at lunchtime, which would have lead me to tomorrow as well.
But I have stuck to my planned two meals (which were still good choices) and I will be back to it tomorrow.

Hope you are all having a great weekend.
Shar x

Daily Report

2008-02-29T06:15:00.000-08:00

Day 5 / 138
Training
Bodyattack- AGAIN!!

Nutrition
100% Clean and to plan
4 Litres Water
1 litre of herbal white tea

Rest, Relaxation, Recovery
7 ½ hours sleep last night – Felt a little better for the extra hour

Promise Yourself Only the Best . . . .

Promise yourself to dream more and to hesitate less.
To believe in yourself more and judge yourself less by the accomplishments of others.
To appreciate your family and friends for all the wonderful ways they make your life better.
Promise yourself to accept life as it comes and truly make each day special.
To become more willing to change.
To fill your life with special times, and make your dreams come true.
- deanna Beisser

Shar x

4 in a row.............

2008-02-28T04:33:00.000-08:00

Going well, BLOGGED 4 days in a row, the little daily report thing is working as I suspected.

I actually sat and looked at my diary today and due to Launches, covers etc I have 11 days straight of Bodyattack. This is crazy, those who have done Bodyattack will know the intensity of it, add to that trying to achieve perfect technique and talking to your class, the intensity on the body is very high - I may try and cover a few!!

Day 4/ 138
Training
Bodyvive
Weights – Back & Biceps
Bodyattack

Nutrition
100% Clean and to plan
4.5 Litres Water
1 litre of herbal white tea

Rest, Relaxation, Recovery
6 ½ hours sleep last night – NOT ENOUGH AGAIN!!!
Sat and had Lunch with Hubby
45 minute nana nap (how cool is napping in the day!!)

Stay well everyone,
Shar x

Thinking......

2008-02-27T05:47:00.000-08:00

Done alot of thinking over the past few days, especially after my family went home and I had my mind coaching session.
I actually can't wait for my next session. I have a week between appointments so as to let anything that surfaces settle and just sit for a while, also because if we do start to work with hypnosis then I need that time also between sessions.
Numerous things came up, one of which related to time spent working in ratio to time spent with my children and husband and my role as a mother.
Lisa posted today about her daughter and how she had a moment that she needed her mum and Lisa prioritized - quote 'The truth is there is nothing more important right now than my daughter. So I wonder how many times in the past I chose to live my busy life, over the most important things in my life? I can't change the past, but I can change the direction of the future.'
This struck a cord.
Along with the following coming home in my daughters bag from Kindy today in newsletter form.

'If I raised my child again'

If I had my child to raise all over again,

I'd finger paint more, and point the finger less.

I would do less correcting and more connecting.

I'd take my eyes off my watch and watch with my eyes.

I would care to know less and know to care more.

I'd take more hikes and fly more kites

I'd stop playing serious, and seriously play

I would run through more fields and gaze at more stars.

I'd do more hugging and less tugging.

I'd build self-esteem first, and the house later.

I would be firm less often, and affirm much more.

I'd teach less about the love of power,
And more about the power of love.

Diane Loomans
100 ways to build self-esteem in children and adults

Sleep well
Shar x

Daily report
Day 3 / 138
Training
Bodyattack
Bodybalance
Bodyattack (2 Bodyattacks is bloody hard in one day)

Nutrition
100% Clean and to plan
4 Litres Water
1 litre of herbal white tea

Rest, Relaxation, Recovery
6 ½ hours sleep last night – I have to get this sorted once all my learning etc is done.
1 hour on the sofa, having lunch and chatting with my hubby. BLISS.

ATTACK, ATTACK, ATTACK

2008-02-26T06:26:00.000-08:00

Yep thats all I have been doing for 3 days, learning new Bodyattack Choreography!!!!!! (and Bodybalance)

Launch tomorrow morning in a team teach situation, followed by Bodybalance launch on my own and the Bodyattack on my own in the evening.

I stress so much at launch time, I HAVE to get the choreography spot on, if I mess up (not very often) I slaughter myself.

Anyway...................

Day 2 / 138
Training
30 min treadmill run
Weights - Shoulders & Chest
Bodyattack
Bodyvive

Nutrition
100% Clean and to plan
4 Litres Water
1 litre of herbal white tea

Rest, Relaxation, Recovery
6 ½ hours sleep last night – NOT ENOUGH!!!
Sat and watched 1 hour of telly
Had my first mind coaching session – very interesting, more to come after my next session.

Time for sleep, gotta get up early to do some final chorie polishing.
Shar x

All Females Prep - Follow my journey - 20 Weeks

2008-02-25T06:00:00.000-08:00

I'm back and I've said it before but I hope to blog daily, will try and make it part of my wind down routine each evening.

I have been absent from blogging (definately not exercise!! The exercise bender did occur!) due to family visit, holidays and work etc.
I am now back to it and will be giving 100% to achieving more than I did last year for the All Females comp, hoping to use this blog as a recording device and the network here as a much needed support.

Before I launch headfirst into my prep I must first acknowledge Liz Nelson with a Big Thanks for the time, knowledge and support during the 8 or so weeks she worked with me through Dec and Jan, I learnt alot. Thanks Liz.

I am also looking forward to working with a professional, working in a mind coaching capacity (maybe using clinical hypnosis) to free some embedded/outdated beliefs that I hold with me relating to both my personal feelings and also freeing underlying issues I may have.
Will keep you posted, I start tomorrow.

Anyway.............

Day 1 / 138
Training
30 min treadmill run
Bodyattack

Nutrition
100% Clean and to plan
4 Litres Water
1 litre of herbal white tea

Rest, Relaxation, Recovery
7 hours sleep last night
Sat and watched ½ hour of telly

See you soon
Shar x

ALL FEMALES 2008

2008-02-18T05:04:00.000-08:00

Who's in???

Who's competing?
Anyone spectating?
When you arriving?
Any suggestions on Accomodation now the venue has changed?

Tell me all your info. :)

Shar x

For Combat Girl xx

2008-02-16T05:08:00.000-08:00

Having a fab time, loving having my bestest things around me and enjoying just doing 'stuff'.

Been south of Perth to Dunsborough, morning runs, beach and pool was the order of the 4 days away.

Exercise bender in the true style of the word tomorrow when me and my booootiful sis attend our Quarterly Workshop.

Been visiting blogs very quickly, no time to comment til next week, time is precious :)

Shar x

Guess What !!!

2008-02-04T07:11:00.001-08:00

THEY ARE HERE !!!!!!!!!!

I'm Back

2008-01-28T06:21:00.000-08:00

Hi All

Thanks for all the comments checking up on me. Yes I have been absent and have had alot happening, I don't feel the need to blog about it nor do I want to.
I have still been checking in on everyone.

I just want to get back to using this as the fantastic support network I know it can be.
I really want to get back to blogging daily (or every couple of days!) just detailing my training and eating etc, when I have done this in the past I have felt really positive from it.

7 sleeps until my family arrive!!!!! I just cannot wait to hold them all and just look at them here with us.
Iwas e mailing Liz earlier and I told her that whenever my SIS and I get together (and my Mum for that matter!) our time is just spent on what we call a constant 'EXERCISE BENDER' (not sure if you Aussies use the word bender?).

I am taking my Group Fitness Manager position off but still teaching all me classes.

My sis is the bestest Bodycombat Instructor so exactly the same as me in that we love to exercise, teach, go to classes etc.
We are lucky enough to be able to go to the LES MILLS, PERTH Quarterly Workshop on the 17th Feb!!!
SIS is booked in for every session (except Bodyjam)thats 6 in total, i'm just gonna do 4 !!!! even coming out of retirement to do Bodycomabt alongside her.

My mum and dad will no doubt be running most days, mum loved to run to the coastal path when she was here in September, the difference this time is she will get to keep on running straight in to the ocean as the weather is so hot now!

Bryce goes back to school on Monday and Maddi starts school!!! She is so excited to be going to school with her BIG BRO!! I will have him in Year 7, his last year and her in Kindy, opposite ends of the school.

Anyway, enough from me, good to be back blogging.
Progress reports coming as often as poss.

Shar x

Update time

2008-01-07T05:43:00.000-08:00

OK just a quick one because Craig Harpers post on Sleep has made me so conscious on getting the right amount of sleep for me, will be playing around with different amounts ever so often to try and find if I'm a 6 hour person or a 8 hour etc.
When I eat shit food I definitely feel sluggish and seem to need more sleep,
when eating well I need less, I know this from my comp prep.
I was getting through the day with less sleep, probably a regular 6 hours
per night, sometimes less!!

Anyway, back to update!! :)
6 Days done and dusted of good clean eating. 5 - 6 meals per day, 3 + litres of water, daily cardio, have gotten back to regular weights and loving it..
The last 6 days has seen me do:
5 Bodyattacks (so hard in the heat!!)
3 Bodybalances
1 Interval Run
3 Weights sessions

I have been on the scales, which have dropped, (I normally get on everyday) (yes I know, I know, no lectures please) but not as much as usual I have only been on twice in the last 6 days! the water has no doubt been the big drop I can see but you know what, the sooner that's gone the sooner we can start to get to the flubber!

I actually feel in control a enough now to really try hard not to get on the scales. So I am going to try for 28 days / 4 weeks getting on the scales.

Yes I should take it a little at a time, perhaps do 2 weeks etc,but I know that I can stick with this for 28 days straight and beyond and the results after a longer period of time will be way better than seeing a little at a time.

Also I have to make this about how I feel, how I see my self in the mirror, how my clothes feel and LESS about the scale number.
I already feel 100 x better than I did 6 days ago, both physically and mentally.

I have e mailed Sam and we should be getting together again soon!!
CAN'T WAIT to see YUMMY MUMMY!!!!
For a catch up, a belly feel and also we will be working on routines for me together.
I'm so excited and I love putting the routine together last comp. Also doing a bit of learning. I have been doing alot of research, reading etc on prep and would love to help out a friend who has asked me too. I also hope one day I will be able to prep myself, but I think this is a long way off, I have to be told what is happening and when, I can't let me have a free reign on myself I just don't listen! LOL!!

Anyway, Craig Harper is in my ear, the clock is ticking, I am feeling tired,
perhaps I'm a 10 hour person!

Shar x

28 days til the arrivals!!

Quote........

2008-01-05T15:19:00.000-08:00

This is where lives are made,

in these moments,

when you choose whether or

not to say I can or I can't.

Jillian Micheals

Oh My......

2008-01-04T06:02:00.000-08:00

Look at my ticker!!!

30 days until my family get here for their holiday!!

YIIPPPPEEEEEEEEEE - DOO - DAAAAA.

Will update on progress (yes there has been progress!) tomorrow, all good here though.

And just for my new positive slant, learning to love myself and for CG - as when I saw the pic you saw I wasn't as disgusted as I thought I would be.

Here's a pic from my prof shoot 2 weeks out from comp.........

I actually do look at this one and I 'LIKE' myself, CG - I will get there :)

Shar x

Learning to love

Shar's 2007 & 2008 Goals

2008-01-01T02:45:00.000-08:00

Well 2007 was a big journey........

JAN 07
saw
us return
from a great
4 week trip
the UK.
Spending
valuable
time with my
very special
family.
(BG, Mum,
Maddi & Me)

(Me and my niece)

JAN - MARCH
Saw me do my classic yo-yo dieting. My weight actually maintained
even if on the higher side of where I wanted to be.
I was moved to a different Fitness First after the acciqusition was closed.
BG turned 11 years old.

MARCH 07
Saw me make the huge decision to start comp prep for the ALL FEMALES in July.
SAMO became 'SARGE' and told me to trust her and she would get me there.
Pretty much end of MARCH - JULY became all about training eating and sleeping!
and of course transforming my body.
FROM THIS..........

16 WEEKS OUT 14 WEEKS OUT

8 WEEKS OUT

7 WEEKS OUT

6 WEEKS OUT

4 WEEKS OUT

TO THIS ......................

THANKS SAM!!!! Your a star. xx

JULY - DEC 07
What an incredible emotional and mental journey I had in the 2nd half of the year after my first comp.
I have continued to find myself fighting and struggling to get back to a regular clean eating plan for more than a 3 weeks at a time, interspersed with binging and mental games.
Exercise has been consistent so things could be alot worse if I hadn't been exercising!

September saw my Mum and Nan visit from the UK, this was just a fantastic few weeks and we had a great time.

October saw me gain a chest back!! What a easy, comfortable, successful process this was.

Maddi turned 4 in November.

December saw me achieve one of my main goals within my career here in OZ and that was to open a new club as GFM. I have been lucky enough to choose my team of instructors, each of them I feel honored to have on my timetable and Subiaco Platinum is going to rock as Group Fitness develops.

2007 Wrap Up.....
I found great strength in doing my comp prep, mental and physical. But unfortunately I end the year at possibly my lowest point on my weight loss/body image journey (even at my heaviest).
This absolutely has to end.
My kids have continued to grow into confident, intelligent and successful little people.
My Career has taken a turn that will now see me settled in 'my own' club for the considerable future and I just love what I do.
My husband continues to be very successful as a Personal Trainer. He is also the most caring, considerate and loving person I know. I am very lucky to have him as my husband and my best friend. Paul - I love you dearly. xx

Shar x

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

2008 - Time For Change

Now or Never / Sink or Swim / Rise or Fall / Take Part or Watch / Go or Stay / Yes or No / I can or I can't / I will or I won't / In or Out / Positive or Negative

I'm done with crying, I'm done with fighting daily, I'm done with wasting my energy, I'm done with making excuses, I'm done with self-damaging thought processes, I'm done with heading down a path I've seen before 10,000 times, I'm done with worrying about what other people think, I'm done with feeling guilty

I'M DONE.

2008 WILL be a good year.

GOALS

To become a strong and positive woman by working on my thought processes and behaviours.

Take on board the opinions and advice of those I value and love only.

Spend quality time with my husband and children.

Continue to achieve at work.

Train and eat consistently to help me find a place physically I like to be at.

Compete in Figure again, having made improvements on last time I stepped on Stage.

Consistently blog, using the fantastic support network that I have found you all to be.

Wishing all you fab women a healthy, happy and safe year ahead. THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT.

Here's to 2008 - Shar x

Merry Chrissie!!

2007-12-24T05:58:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS

EVERYONE

Have a safe and wonderful Christmas.

Shar x

PS - Check in went well - 2.5kg off!! Totals on right hand side

Little wins all add up....

2007-12-23T04:46:00.000-08:00

......to a big win in the end.
So following on from my update....
I got very sick with a bad cold, I haven't had a cold in ages and forgot how grotty they can make you feel.
So training wise I had to cover my classes and couldn't train as I had planned for Thursday - Sunday. Which with my 'normal' all or nothing approach isn't good.

BUT........
having acknowledged that I may tend towards falling off the wagon with food due to not being able to exercise, I really had to put my head down and focus and I am pleased to say I have emerged a winner!!

I have eaten to plan and not strayed, I had to try hard today when my inner demon ' bob the binger' wanted me to start eating for Christmas already!

But I have told him straight, am I not eating shit or binging from today and although I will be allowing a bit of what I fancy on Chrissie day, in moderate amounts, he will not be talking me into extending Christmas past CHRISTMAS DAY!!!!

I am so proud of myself for the success of this week and am hoping for another loss tomorrow, I am not prepared to just throw it all away and waste my time and energy put in this week.

So I'll do a quick check in tomorrow to update my stats.

On to other stuff, that being that I am still in love with my new club!! Here's something for Liz, Di and anyone else who loves RPM............Imagine cycling in this!!
(really doesn't
show it off, its
bigger than it
looks and bikes
are beautifully
spaced but
believe me its
awesome when
your standing
in it)

So I hope you are all well, ready for the festive period to hit, if it hasn't
started already for you.
Speak soon
Shar x

Quick Check In........

2007-12-20T05:12:00.000-08:00

All is going well, seem to have found my stride again with training after
my disruption with the new club opening last week.

Food has been spot on but I could do with eating more! Working on that.
Exercise back on track.

Had to rest today as a sore throat I have had has develpoed into a full blown cold, feeling really crappy. Also lost my taste which really annoys me.

Although I forgot to weigh on Monday, I did remember on Tuesday and was suprised to see a loss of 1.3kg. Total for 2 weeks now - 2.9kg

Back soon
Shar x

Have a look.......

2007-12-17T05:26:00.000-08:00

at 'MY' beautiful studio!!

So just a quick update as I have to get to bed.

After an exhausting week last week, the club opened and all went well.

Attendance to the club is low but they expected that due to the time of year.

The club is just gorgeous and has a great Head of Department team, reception team and PT's.

I feel totally at home when I walk in, I have a great GF team and cannot wait to take GF to the top.

Now for me!!

So from the above you can tell I was time poor last week, this put and end to trying to squeeze in training, I also wasn't teaching as I had all my classes covered to allow me to set up GF at the new club. This of course with my all or nothing attitude pissed me off.

Then I allowed a few not so good food choices to creep in. I don't think any major damage has been done, I forgot to weigh in this morning (yep your heard right, Miss Scales and the magic Number forgot to get on them!!) will weigh in the morning and log my results.

So this week has seen me back to my normal hours, classes and I have planned my training.

Today

30 mins cardio

Weights Session

Bodyattack Class

4 clean meals eaten - yep I know, not enough!

3 litres of water - yep I know, not enough!

Working on a few mental attitude changes, very powerful suff when you are finally willing to accept that changes are well over due and why.

One is to love who I am, whatever I am, what ever I look like, whatever I am doing.

So here goes - 'I am a strong and beautiful woman' (I'm sure I will one day believe this)

Anyway, bed is a calling.

Hope you are all well, been checking in with all blogs just not had time to comment, Sorry.

Shar x

Time to shine.........

2007-12-09T18:09:00.000-08:00

Like a Platinum Princess!!!!! Thanks for the great new name LIZ! :)

Yeppppeedoodee, my club opens on Thursday and today sees me start a week that
will undoubtedly be one of my busiest yet.

We have a meeting today and hopefully we can all enter the club to get set up from tomorrow morning. Can't wait to show my Instructor team through and launch Group Fitness.

Anyway, update on me and how I'm tracking.......in one word - BETTER.

I am now under some guidance with my food and also working on bits and bobs that are affecting me emotionally and I have found this invaluable.

I didn't have a perfect week, but my first weigh in has shown a loss of 1.6kg so I am very happy with that.
I have to be honest and say I wasn't at first!! I was so pissed at myself this morning, as better weekend could have seen me with better results.
But you know what, I have to stop the looking back, stop the 'look what I did before', 'I had a great figure why did I go ruin it' etc, I have to effectively forget what I achieved before and focus on the NOW, the journey ahead.

So week one down and 1.6kg off. YAY!!!!!!
Although I don't really want to have an 'end' date, I am a person that needs a goal, so I have set my self the target to be at the weight I want by my next quarterly workshop, which also runs in line with my Family coming from the UK.

I am posting my results week by week on the right hand side.

Anyway, must dash, meeting to attend, club to open darling!! :)

Speak soon

Shar - 'Platinum Princess' xx

Quick update

2007-11-30T06:21:00.000-08:00

Just a quick update.
Mainly to say a big THANK YOU to everyone who left me a comment or e mailed me direct after my post on Tuesday.
The support is fantastic and really brings home what a support network we have here.

So what has happened since my post......LOTS.

I have done alot of soul searching.
I have come to realize it has to be about the mind not just the body.
I had a defining moment tonight, will share with you soon.
I have sought some help and guidence to get me back on track.
I will deal with this day by day, step by step.
I have removed my next comp from the agenda (for now)I have to make inroads towards living this daily without having an end date all the time.

Not bad for 3 days, still a huge way to go but I am feeling very positive about my direction.

THANKS AGAIN EVERYONE

SHAR XXXX

Your choice to read or not ......

2007-11-27T06:38:00.001-08:00

Disclaimer
I do totally know that there are people out there worse off than me, people that are sick and poorly, people that are going through stressful situations, people that have had a loved one taken from them etc.
I do know that what I’m about to post will seem minor to some.
I do know and fully acknowledge how lucky I am. I have a gorgeous husband who really does love me unconditionally and ALWAYS tries to help me, my children are truly a gift to me and I am very lucky to have been chosen to guide them, I have a mum who has taught me a lot, whom I love dearly and has so many qualities I aspire to, my sister and best friend Nicola who I just adore & have been blessed to have a part of my world.

SO, when reading this please remember I started this blog to record MY journey, my thoughts, I promised to always be honest with what I write.

I was going to shut my blog down but feel that I have learnt so much from you wonderful group of bloggers over the last two years it would be a shame to do that.
I also find this a very useful tool in my life with regards to being able to ‘talk’. I am apart from my family. I can talk to Paul but there are only so many times I can burden him with the same thing over and over.
So I find in great to just type my feelings sometimes.

(Inserted after finished typing!)
WARNING – Long post, lots of ramble but it feels good.

So here goes…………..
I have felt like this before and it scares me.
The last time I felt like this I was 100kg and probably at my lowest point.
Since comp, 19 whole weeks ago now, I have been training consistently but have only had 6 weeks in total of eating well, a block of 4 weeks and another block of 2 weeks.
I have constantly been fighting myself, I feel totally lost, totally out of control, total embarrassed, disgusted, weak, inferior to name but a few feelings.
I have spent my life (in my eyes) not quite being good enough, feeling the lesser one, I always think people are judging me, never feeling I deserve to just find that place, that even keel, its almost like I wouldn’t be me if I wasn’t struggling.

Some of you will know my history with my body image / weight, some wont but without going into it, it’s a long history of yo-yoing to extremes.
My life has been about weight and how I look. I don’t like it like this but I am just not happy being overweight yet I allow myself to lose and gain in a repeated cycle.
If you are saying’ ‘oh god, suck it up and get on with it’or ‘there are more important things’ then please know that if I could control this I would. Those that have been there and been consumed by something similar will relate, but maybe you are just not a repeat offender, I unfortunately have been

I feel I am at rock bottom again, I’m the heaviest I’ve been since we arrived in Australia and need to lose 11kg.
Although I’m just hanging in there and stopping getting to the point where I won’t be able to get back up easily, I feel more hate, more disgust, more embarrassment than ever before. I feel very sad right now.

I clearly have underlying issues and have started to look into getting these dealt with by someone outside my circle. This will take time.

In the meantime I decided to write this, in the hope I can release it as I have just been bottling everything up until today I just broke down.

This is neither healthy for me or my precious family.

My husband brought it home to me today when he said ‘you have to realize that it is not only you that is affected, in a round about way it affects Maddi and Bryce. I just want to help you and you are doing your health no good’.

Whenever I have made a change before, I have made the decision, made the choice not to be this way anymore and I have succeeded, I read my whole comp prep today, that is just one example of when the decision is made.

This time I just haven’t been able to find the switch and it has remained very dark.
Perhaps getting this off my chest, admitting that if I don’t make a change again I may not be able to claw my way out.

I have to find the belief in myself.

Shar x

Thanks Di.......

2007-11-25T03:35:00.001-08:00

..........for giving me the kick up the butt that I needed to post again......
and because you asked so nicely I will update on my new additions.

Once again I would like to say I cannot believe how easy this whole process has been for me, the research, the pre operative process, the surgery, the recovery, the aftercare, everything really has been just fantastic.

I am more than happy with my results.

Here are some pics.......

BEFORE & AFTER (Side View)

BEFORE & AFTER (side angle)

BEFORE & AFTER (front)

So other stuff....

Tomorrow see's me start my new position - SUBIACO PLATINUM GFM!!!!!! for Fitness First.

I have 2 and a half weeks and the club will open, so some really busy times ahead.

I started back teaching last Monday and all is well. Have to have a very tight bra on to hold them still for Bodyattack but apart from that all is good.

Have started training with weights again and been out for 2 runs this week.

Maddison had her birthday party yesterday, she is 4 on Thursday!! We had a special party room at an indoor play place. She chose the disco room! glitter, hair and clothes were carefully chosen by the madam herself. She had a ball.

We also had a trip to School on Friday. Maddi got to meet her teachers and see her classroom for when she starts in FEB 08.

Bryce is still being the usual good boy, came home with a merit certificate from school for his effort in class, being happy and outgoing member of the class and taking a mature approach to his work this term. can't ask for more really. :)

Paul is working hard as usual and loving his job, building his client base everyday and even has no slots left in the evenings.

So that's me and my update.

Shar x

2007-11-18T04:17:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
MUMMA SAM!!

X X X

Tag-a-rooney!!

2007-11-15T04:56:00.000-08:00

Thanks for the tag Mumma Sam.

Four dishes I like to cook:
1. Spag Bol
2. Salmon
3. Roast Dinner
4. Pasta Bakes

Four qualities I love in people:
1. Honesty
2. Passion
3. Organisation
4. Kindness

Four Places I have been:
1. Route 1 round Australia
2. Cuba
3. Greece
4. France

Four things in my bedroom:
1. Mess!! Very un-virgo like!
2. A shoe rack for my Nike shox - 14 pairs
3. MY BED!! I say everynight when I get into bed "I love it here, I just need to get here a little earlier"
4. Very Virgo like! - a set of drawers just for my teaching clothes. A bodyattack drawer, a bodybalance drawer etc etc. Sad I know....

Four dirty words I like to use:
1.Can't bring my self to write any bad words here!! My mum reads :)
2.
3.
4.

I tag Magda, Ursula, Nicole, Ali and Hilary.

To respond to a tag, cut'n'paste the questions above and answer to your heart's content!

Ain't another woman that can take your spot.....

2007-11-12T06:05:00.000-08:00

My Love......
Yes indeedy, I went to Justin's concert on Saturday night!!!!!!!

and here he is!

It was just amazing. I am a big fan of him and his music and some of you may know I
won best routine at the All females, thanks to 'MUMMA SAM's' fab routine using Justin's - My Love song.

We had great seats and the whole show was great.

Anyway enough of Justin (for now!), I'm still healling well, I tried low option Bodyattack on Saturday, it killed me!! not to do it but to do LOW OPTIONS!! ARRGGHHHHHHH!!

Anyway, the bounce needs to be tamed a little more than the bra's I had on, so just gotta strap em in a little tighter! and all should be good.

Full movement in my arms, up, out, around, forward back in bench press motion, just not feeling I can do anything with weights and nor am I supposed to until 6 weeks.

I have a very busy few weeks coming up, actually not a few, quite a few. :)

I am hanging for the new Les Mills chorie and we have our quarterly workshop on Sunday coming.
I am going to make a one time comeback and do my first love - Bodycombat. Just because we have Rachel Newsham coming to Perth to present it, she is Bodycombat's programme choreographer, along with her other half Dan, but he's not coming. She is just amazing and has such a great presence.

CLAUDINE - FANTASTIC!!!!! WELL DONE, you deserve it!! 2nd place is GREAT!

Hope your all well

Shar x

Part 2 - Recovery

2007-11-08T06:25:00.000-08:00

17 days since surgery and all is well!! VERY WELL

I have to say I have found the whole process so far a smooth one.

I am now back to exercising daily at low intensity.
From 5 days after surgery I have been out walking, at a brisk pace daily.

From 10days after surgery I have been back at the gym doing low intensity cardio
on the crosstrainer, walking incline and recumbent cycle being careful to keep a low to moderate heart rate only due to the risk of internal bleed or clot formations being disturbed.

At 12 days after surgery I commenced a lower body circuit with Hubby guiding me, light body weight exercises, seated ham machine, some medicine ball work.

My doctor is well known Perth and is highly recommended. When I was researching having the procedure, I took this into account and along with the professionalism of him, when I met with him and that of his clinic and staff I made my decision to book my operation.
Before surgery his was the only name that came up when receiving recommendations and since surgery when I have been asked by someone who did my op and I state his name, they either say "that's who my friend/sister/cousin etc went with" or "that's who has been recommended to me".
I am in no doubt whatsoever I have had the best Surgeon do my Breast Augmentation.

My after care has been amazing.
Day 1 Surgery
Day 2 - seen by doctor
Day 3 - Clinic, seen by doctor and nurse
Day 5 - Clinic, sen by nurse
Day 10 - Clinic, seen by doctor and nurse
Day 16 - Clinic, seen by nurse

So my incisions have healed 'extremely well' and look 'really good' for 16 days apparently
I have started to use my bio oil.

So all in all so far so good on the 'boob' front. :)

I had a few days after surgery where my food was a little snacky and picky due to feeling a bit offish and I just ate what I fancied, when I was awake and hungry.

But all back on track now. Paul is committing to clean eating with me so that helps alot.

Paul and I have decided to design my nutrition plan and if I do say so it looks good.
It will take me to the end of the year along with a training plan we have put together, then a change in training and food in the lead up to official prep, which will start for All Females in July.

I think the saying is 'All coming together nicely'.

OH YEAH!!!!! How did I forget this and not post it as the beginning!!
We have a new Fitness First Opening in WA, December 13th.
FITNESS FIRST SUBIACO PLATINUM

I interviewed last Thursday and was told yesterday I will be the Group Fitness Manager there!!!!! I AM OVER THE MOON!!
I just love teaching GF and cannot wait to design & implement the Timetable and recruit a passionate group of Instructors to make 'my' new club a raving success especially in the GF studio.

Be Strong, Be confident, Believe,
Shar x

Believe in yourself and
all that you are.
Know that there is
something inside
you greater than any
obstacle.
Christian D Larson

OVERDUE UPDATE!!

2007-11-01T06:07:00.000-07:00

At last.....
Thanks for all the well wishes, good luck comments and even the personal e mails checking that I am OK!!!

So, my new 'boobs'. . . . . . . . . .ARE GREAT!!!!
I have alot to update so will do it in parts!

PART 1 - Breast Augmentation - My Experience (WARNING: may be boring)
Monday 22nd October
My Dad drives me to the Hospital on the way to work, I head in, book into the DOSA (day of surgery admissions), which is like a big doctors surgery waiting room.

After being processed and in order of time of operation you get called to head up to another waiting area which is next to the preparation ward.

See the anaesthetist, (asking him for pre-med to be prescribed!), get called through to a bed, nurse does all pre-op checks, gown up, in my case ask for the pre-med the anaesthetist prescribed, get sleepy watching tele in bed.

The op time comes and I was wheeled to theatre, saw doctor who drew lines on me, given anesthetic, mask over face...................ZZZZZZZZZZZ

WAKE UP!!! tightly bandaged around torso and chest, no pain, just tightness. Drains either side.
Taken to my room, stats taken and checked by nurse, shown how to use my call bell and bed remote......... ZZZZZZZZZZ AGAIN!!!

Drift in and out of sleep, see lunch come and go as just couldn't stomach anything, start to feel a little discomfort, not pain, ask for some painkillers.........ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ AGAIN.

Barely manage to string a sentence together when Paul visits, once he's gone I wake up a little, still can't eat my dinner, watch tele, and keep looking down checking out what may be under all the bandages!! Really hard to gauge as the bandages push them down and in and you can't really get an idea of how they look.

Nurse makes me drink a glass of water and then comes back and wants me to get out of bed to go to the toilet. Back to bed, get comfy, NOT, to go to, yes you guessed it SLEEP :) for the night. Due to the painkillers wearing off and having slept pretty much all day I am wide awake at 2am, cant really move alot as I was scared I would pull something, so just lay there for a couple of hours and finally got of to sleep.

TUESDAY 23rd October
Breakkie brought round, which I was gagging for, I was starving.
Nurse then came and un-bandaged me, then I could see my new 'boobs', was a little worried at first as to how high they seemed to be. It felt so good to have the bandages off.
Was advised by the nurse to take some painkillers about 1 hour before drains were removed so did that.
My doctor came round to check, he was pleased with how they were looking.
Nurse then came to remove drains, now, this did hurt!!! but was about a 3-4 seconds each side to remove them, she then put on waterproof dressings and then I could have a shower.

I was then re-bandaged and off home to rest for the day until my appt at the doctors rooms the next day, to be shown how to massage them and be fitted with the Bras I am living in day and night for 3 weeks.

So step by step how it was for me from entry to hospital to home.
Overall a positive experience, very little pain, more like discomfort and I am pleased to report my results are getting better by the day.

If anyone has any questions please ask in comment or e mail me.

Part 2 - Recovery to come soon
Speak soon
Shar x

Day 27

2007-10-19T16:49:00.000-07:00

Hi All

Thanks Tara for he comment, it made me realize I hadn't updated at all since Monday!!

I have had alot going on this week. I am on Annual Leave from my GFC position next week so have to get everything done and dusted so my 2IC just does the bare minimum, they get 5 hours to cover for a week!

Also been teaching more this week, took some covers and have been doing cardio as per the last 3 weeks. Food all clean still I can't believe I have no caved in once, not he slightest bit of 'mind fighting' happening. the old body definately has some shape coming back!.

I think having my little social mini goals definitely is helping, they are all important for me to feel good about myself.
Not necessarily be looking buff and in comp condition, as I realize that is not realistic all year round, but at least be within 'reach' (10-12 weeks prep, not 16 - 20!!) of comp condition and feel good about myself, this is my ultimate goal and I hope to reach that by Jan 08.

Also helping is the fact I wanted to get on top of the mind games and have lost a bit of weight before Monday. On Monday I go in to have Breast Augmentation done.
It is something I have wanted done since my second baby and have been saving up. So now is a good time as I want to compete next October.

I am very excited but nervous at the same time. A big Thank you to a couple of bloggers, you know who you are :) who have been very forthcoming with info to help me through and recover well.
I go in on Monday and will be home on Tuesday. Hopefully I will post mid week.

So trying times ahead with my food and exercise, being a all or nothing person it will be a real test for me to eat well if I'm not exercising. I plan to get out walking along our beautiful coastal path daily once I'm feeling up to it.

I will have plenty of time to as I won't be teaching Group Fitness for 4 weeks
possibly 5!!!!!!!!!!!
ARRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I can't explain fully but this is an absolute night mere for me. Its not just about missing the exercise but I just LOVE my classes, my members etc, i hate covering my classes, oh well such is life.

I feel I'm on track for another loss this week so that will be good and I'll report that next week.

Nearly 4 weeks down on this particular journey!! Was it 28 days to break a habit, combat girl? when you sent me that I really didn't think id do 28 days but hey, look what we can do when we really want it. :)

Anyway until next time

Shar x

For Kie!!

2007-10-16T06:22:00.001-07:00

Seeing as Kie can't post her pics / hasn't got any, I have cropped some for her and posted here for you all to view. Not the best shots but done my best with what I have.

ENJOY!

WELL DONE KIE!!

Day 22

2007-10-15T07:39:00.000-07:00

Hey Hey
3 weeks done, clean eats for whole period, cardio daily twice a day somedays.

Loss this week - 1.5kg!! Total of 5.1kg fr the 3 weeks.

I am eating regularly, clean food, less carbs than Protien but still more than I would have thought I needed to lose weight, so all good at the moment.
Water has risen a little, still could get more down me, but at least it has risen and stayed consistent.

Motivation is still holding, no fighting myself etc and I have alot of mini events happening at the moment, almost one every two weeks from now, enough to keep me focussd and interested in continuing without blowing out.
Not major things, just things like events etc. For example - My Les Mills QW, always like to look 'presentable', as an instructor should, we have a Group Fitness Meeting coming soon where us GFM's hold an evening of awards, updating policy's etc for ALL our Group Fitness Instructors, I am going to see Justin Timberlake and can't wait for the night out.
You get the idea. I might even pop my mini event list on the side here.

Anyway, bed is calling, early run to do tomorrow morning.

Loving to see the pictures that are coming through from the comps, still a few that need to post!! so looking forward to those too.

Shar x

With each choice you make,
consider what that choice will bring.
You have the power to create your own results.

Days 16 - 20

2007-10-13T07:41:00.000-07:00

Everything still going well, food still on plan, no slips or mind games going on.

Exercise is still very cardio!! although I planned to not do as much this week to se if I still get a loss on the scales, so have reduced by 2 sessions.

I went to the INBA WA State comp today!!
It was so good to be there and glad I made the last minute decision to go.
Not only did I manage to see all the Figure classes but I caught up with SAM-I-AM, got to meet Rae, saw my collegue in her first comp along with 3 of Sam's girls.

WA STATE
FIGURE
NOVICE

There were 11 girls in Novice, they didn't split into heights. Was realy good to watch pre-judging. You can pick up alot of useful things - such as how to present, pose, bikini design and colour, also a few things to note that may assist you in becoming better at all the above i.e what not to do.

So all is well still progressing, will report on Monday and post my weekly results on the right hand side.

I hope you all are having a fantastic weekend.

GOOD LUCK TO ALL COMPETING THIS WEEKEND, 2 words for you all ........ .. PICTURES PLEASE! :)

until next time
Shar x

Day 15

2007-10-08T05:45:00.000-07:00

Hey hey

Just a quick one to update weekly weight loss etc

Weekly Weight loss = 1.8kg
Total (after two weeks) = 3.6kg

Skinfolds down and tape measurements down by a total of 8.75cm. Not bad in two weeks.

So onward I plod, I have a realistic target weight, bodyfat% and tape measurements in mind, once I achieve these I will re-assess my headspace and decide my next plan of attack.

I have a few options for next year and a few ideas I'm still working through so we shall see.

Anyway must dash lots to do! :)

Shar x

Taken from Mimi's blog -

'Fitness is a lifelong pilgrimage.
And like religious pilgrims, all who seek health must commit themselves to the journey.
Those who do will find lasting results.'
- Ray Kybartas

Days 11, 12, 13 & 14

2007-10-07T07:00:00.001-07:00

Daa, daa, daa, another one bites the dust........

So, two weeks down of total overload of cardio!! - well I have to hang on to my nickname that Sam gave me - CARDIO SHARDIO.

Also two whole weeks of clean, regular eating!

Although I know I have a long way to go I have to relish in this moment, as since comp I have not been in control AT ALL, not even for a day.
I feel like I have my 'ZING' back and am really focused on continuing this lifestyle.

So days 11 through to 14 saw me knock off another 7 cardio sessions and eat 5 meals per day of clean on plan food.

I will continue to blog but don't feel the need to tell you my meals or fluid intake, perhaps will still post my training I'll just see how I go from here, but one things for sure, THE ONLY WAY IS UP!!!!

I will report what the scales say in the morning, hoping for another loss I have worked my ass of this week.

Anyway onto other stuff.

IT IS SO COOL TO BE READING ABOUT EVERYONE'S JOURNEYS TO THEIR COMPS!!
and there are more to come as the comps continue all the way to the Nationals.

So all those out there that read my blog that are competing or have competed do keep posting, do keep sharing your ride with us.

My ride to next comp will be happening it is just when that I have to decide, lots of thoughts as to what path to take, lots of options and choices to make with regards to training for it.
Oh how exciting!!

Enough gabble for now.

See ya soon

Shar X

Open Your Eyes
to the beauty around you,

Open Your Mind
to the wonders of life,

Open Your Heart
to those who love you,

And Always
be true to yourself

- donna davis

Living it and Loving it!

2007-10-03T04:08:00.000-07:00

Days 8, 9 & 10
Yeppee-doo-dee I made it through my first full week of clean eating and exercising.
I'm now 3 days down on the 2nd week! Can't be bad.

Day 8
60 min steady state run
Meals 1-5 all clean and on plan

Day 9
60 min steady state run
Weights - Back & Shoulders
Bodybalance
Bodyattack
Meals 1-6 all clean and on plan (have a meal 6 option for when I need it and with all the training listed I needed it!)

Day 10
Bodyattack
Bodybalance
45 min run (including hills)
Meals 1-5 all clean and on plan.

So as you can see all is well, I intend on blogging still as I do think it helps.

Oh yes! I have added a space on the right hand side to list my weeks results.
This week I had a drop on the scales of 1.8kg.

Feeling so good to be back on top of my eating, it was truly wearing me down having a continual fight. LIVING IT AND LOVING IT!

It's so exciting at the moment reading all the Figure girls blogs with everyone getting so close. GOOD LUCK TO ALL! and as usual lots of photos please as soon as you can!

Until tomorrow
Shar x

Day 7 - 1 Week done

2007-09-30T07:24:00.000-07:00

Yes yes yes, I made it.

I will weigh in the morning an report this weeks result from the scales. Have tried a few pieces of clothing on that were tight and they are feeling loads better already.
So all good even if the scales haven't dropped lots.

Had the old mind games shit creeping back in today, but I have managed to fight back and ward of the 'evil binge monster' telling me to eat crap cause its a weekend.
So .... Day 7
Exercise
Bodybalance
Bodyattack

Eats
5 Meals eaten - 100% clean and on plan.

Water
2 litres - Still not enough but better
1 litre of herbal white tea

Weekly Round Up
So lots of cardio this week but no weights! no excuses, I just didn't schedule my week well enough and most of my focus was on getting my food back on track so I can continue my lifestyle choice, as if I don't do that I won't be competeing again nor very healthy!

So, now my priority alongside eating a clean diet, is without a doubt training hard with weights again, other wise how will I get up on stage next year looking better than this year??

To those who are on a Long Weekend - have a good one!

Shar x

Can she do it????????????

2007-09-29T06:48:00.000-07:00

Make it to a week that is!!! YES SHE CAN !!!! Bring on MONDAY!

Many of you may be reading this and thinking, WOW, 1 week, so what!!

I have been struggling a little today, the old mind games I used to play have been knocking at the door to come in and mess me up.

It's the weekend thing happening and although I could probably have a 'Free Meal' and not see any difference in my results for the week I know and recognise that right now I am not in a place that I would stop at one meal.

This is a major thing for me to admit to and be in control of. So on I plod, so what it's Saturday, just another day for me to cross off in my quest to live this lifestyle day in day out, week in week out, month in month out.

Also if I could fully explain what has happened to me mentally since my first comp in July you would appreciate that 1 week of totally clean eating is a major milestone for me right now.

So..... DAYS 5 & 6

Day 5

Exercise

Bodybalance

Bodyattack

Eats

5 Meals eaten - 100% clean and on plan.

Water

1.5 litres - NO WAY ENOUGH AGAIN!!

1 litre of herbal white tea

Day 6

Exercise

Bodyattack

1 hour Powerwalk

Eats

5 meals eaten - 100% clean and on plan

Water

1.8 litres

0.5 litre herbal white tea

So my water consumption is leaving a little to be desired right now so will really make an effort tomorrow with that.

I'm feeling very tired physically today, have been pushing it with the cardio this week so not suprised.

Bed early tonight will help me re-charge before another Bodyattack in the morning.

Report tomorrow and then hopefully after a good result on Monday, I may feel focused enough not to blog everything everyday? But if I think I need to then I will, I have to make sure all changes I am implementing, stick and stay, living it daily..............

Shar x

PS a friend reminded me to day not to forget where i have come from and what I have achieved and you know what, she's right! So here's a reminder!!

Another day down....

2007-09-27T08:07:00.000-07:00

Yep yep, one more crossed off.
Feeling physically tired today but good mentally.

Day 4
Exercise
30 min run - hill repeats
Bodybalance
Bodybalance
Bodyattack

Eats
5 Meals eaten - 100% clean and on plan.

Water
2 litres - NO WAY ENOUGH!!
1 litre of herbal white tea

Off to bed, no run to do in the morning, so hope little girl lays in!! (YEH RIGHT!)
Hope everyone is well
Shar x

The switch remains on!

2007-09-26T08:23:00.000-07:00

Quick report...

Day 2 - Tuesday

Exercise
A.M - 45 minute run
P.M - Bodybalance
Bodyattack

Eats
5 meals 100% clean and to plan

Water
3 litres
1 litre of White Tea - Not tea with milk, white tea as in the more potent green tea.

Day 3 - Wednesday

Exercise
A.M - Bodyattack
Bodybalance
P.M - Bodyattack

Eats
5 meals 100% clean and to plan

Water
2.5 litres
1/2 litre of White Tea - Not tea with milk, white tea as in the more potent green tea.

So I'm flowing well! No mind games or fighting myself happening which is a welcome relief.
It can really take it out of you mentally. Feel strangley in control, but hey, it has only been 3 days!! :) Better not count my chickens.......

A little tired today but having two Bodyattacks in a day generally gets me! especially when I give absolutely everything.
Needed to up my fluid today, will focus on that more.

Speak soon and have a great Thursday everyone.

Shar x

WANTED.............

2007-09-24T07:08:00.000-07:00

Directions to Shar's switch please.........

.....so that next time it needs switching ON I can do it sooner!!!!

I have spent the last 2 weeks doing alot of thinking, alot of battling, alot of chatting with my Mum who has been here from the UK and it looks like I have emerged better than I have been since my comp.

I wasn't going to come back to blogging for a bit but have decided to do so. The support that you get here is fantastic, I did find it helped whilst prepping and also I love that you can go back and read over previous posts.

So I'M BACK.

It has been one shit ride since comp but I can only learn from it, learn from my reactions, learn from the whole process.

My first lesson learnt is that whenever I have had success I have always had a target, an end date / goal etc.
This is a good motivator for me to get to where I want to be BUT this can no longer be the case.
I have to make this a Lifestyle, no begginning, no end, just a constant state of health.
Hence the new blog name.
I intend to embark on living the lifestyle.

I intend on getting back to a place that is maintainable all year round, leaving me only little work to do if I decide to compete again.

It is my intention to compete again next year, but right now my priority is to put all the lifestyle changes I made during prep into practice, find consistency and focus.

Although I have been consistently training since comp it is the food I have been struggling with.
So I want to log my workouts and whether i ate to plan each day.

My day numbers are purely so I can see how far I have come as each day passes, I have no end point right now, obviously when / if prepping for a comp there will be 'COMP DAY' but this will not signify the end, just a pit stop on my what will now be a constant journey.

Day 1 - Monday
Exercise
A.M - 45 minute run
P.M - 45 min incline power walk

Eats
5 meals 100% clean and to plan

Water
3 litres
1 litre of White Tea - Not tea with milk, white tea as in the more potent green tea.

Hope you are all well and those who are close to comp now, don't forget to blog as much as poss, its great to read how you are doing.

Shar x

From The Heart............

2007-09-10T07:10:00.000-07:00

PART 2

Hey All
I am overwhelmed for a few reasons.......

1) All the comments that I received in response to my last post AND all the e mails that I
received, (which I haven't gotten around to replying to yet!!)
I cannot Thank You enough for all the support, encouragement etc, it really does mean alot.

2) The knowledge that how I am feeling is very common amongst competitors but very few
talk about it.

Things have been better for me this week and it seems to be since I have come out and said I'm struggling, almost like I didn't have to hide the tug-of-war anymore.

I still have major body image issues when looking at myself.

I also can't explain how hard it is for me to get up there and teach my classes feeling like I am right now. I feel like everyone is passing judgement and laughing at me.
The only solice I find is in the fact that I give my all to each and everyone of my classes, I deliver the class with passion, energy and try to ensure my participants enjoy themselves and get everything they wanted out of the class.

The main thing I have struggled with this week is knowing that with even just 2-3 weeks of clean eating I will drop weight, skin folds will decrease and I will back on my way to feeling heaps better, but I find myself back in my old cycle of - need to get on track to make a difference, get on track but it feels so far away, no immediate changes, fall of the wagon, feel worse, eat more, need to get on track to make a difference and so on and so on. WHY!!!!!

I have been reading alot of positive affirmations and trying to fit in some meditation to try and bring focus.
I am also going to look right back and remember my complete journey, perhaps I will post some pictures.

I am planning to pull it all together and get going again, I have to give it everything and I know it will not take me long to see the changes.
OK, so committing to BLOGGERS, seeing as you were all so generous with your encouragement and kind words I should really take all of that positive and direct it into continuing this path of mine!

I have a mini goal in 6 weeks time, I will use this as an interim goal to set my focus again, lose a 'few' kilos but most importantly, find belief in myself again.

Starting - Tuesday 11th September
I will try and blog each days results, at least until I am flowing again!

I was going to type - 'wish me luck' but you know what, I kow that its not luck thats needed, just hard work, belief and focus.

I can, I will.

Shar x

From the heart...............

2007-09-02T07:46:00.001-07:00

PART 1

So, Hi, a long absence needs some explaining perhaps?

This post and perhaps a few more if I don't have time to tell my story, comes from the heart, no bullshit, truth and honesty all the way.
Perhaps it will help someone, perhaps someone will relate, but if not, so what! it will damn sure help me to get it out!

POST COMP COME DOWN
I was totally and utterly over the moon about how my comp day went.
I went into the comp as I vowed I would, having given everything I could to both my training and diet.
I enjoyed EVERY minute. My hubby was proud, Sam was pleased with me, I was pleased with myself and all I had given, I placed 2nd, won best routine, what more could I ask for??

Nothing.

Surely now I had achieved what I wanted to, I had stuck to a plan for 16 weeks, 16 whole weeks, I could continue with my new found discipline, my new found control.

NO, I couldn't.

In the days following the comp I found myself down, tearful, questioning could I have given more and worse of all BINGEING EXCESSIVELY.

After a week or so I tried to reign it in and get back on track as it was my intention to go on and compete in the WA STATE comp.
Surely I could get my shit together and get back on track, I had just done it for 16 Bloody weeks, what the hell is wrong with me?
A week turned into 2, then 3, I was fighting myself every minute, every hour, every day to get back to clean eating.

The weeks were slipping by and the WA state comps getting closer, so back to Sam went, fully clothed and refusing to take any off!! She looked at me and told me that I looked fine and we can make it.
BUT how can the Shar I see in the mirror differ to what everyone else is seeing, coz I'm seeing some weak willed, fat, bloated, out of control individual.
I felt like I was sinking deeper and deeper and there was no-one who could possibly help me up again.
I felt exactly the same, if not worse then I did at my biggest of 100kg. The feelings were painful and still are.
I felt / feel pathetic, weak, disgusted and useless.

I believed in Sam and got back on track with my food, still fighting daily. But, the commitment and desire just wasn't there.
I sat down with Paul and decided that I was wanting to compete in this comp for the wrong reasons.
ALSO, very important to me is to be TRUE TO MYSELF. I promised myself if I ever went on to do a second, third, fourth comp I would always aim to step onstage in better condition than the last comp, I would not have been able to keep this promise to myself , so for that and the other reasons, I decided not to compete at the WA STATES. I am gutted but know deep down it is the right decision.

So to sum up, a fantastic ending (the comp) to a long journey (16 weeks comp prep) but a real mental beating after comp. I cannot fully explain what this has done to mentally, but I will have a fully planned after comp routine for my next comp and one thing I do know is that I will make it through this, I just have to find the belief in myself again.

Believe in yourself and
all that you are.
Know that there is
something inside you
greater than any obstacle.

Christian D Larson

Shar x

IMAGINE..........

2007-08-13T17:43:00.000-07:00

Here we go again!

2007-07-22T08:40:00.000-07:00

Hi All

Just want to start by saying a BIG Thank you for all the comments!!!

Adele - Thanks for following my journey

Kelly - I didn't even know you were going o be at the show!! so gutted I missed meeting you!!

Mandy - Thanks for your congratulations

Lia - Thanks again for making me smile!! I was concentrating so hard!! So good to meet you.

Hilds - I did enjoy the whole experience and that is all I can ask for. Have had a few moments this week when I sat and looked at my 'whole' journey!! Very emotional. Great to meet you and I can't wait to see you up on stage!

Jodie - great to meet you too, thanks for the support on the day!

Kie - Thanks for your congratulations

Amy - Thanks for your congratulations

Pip - Keep pushing hard in your own challenge and Thanks for all your support each week when you come to my class!

Selina - i was good to meet you after all this time!! I only wish I had more time to sit and chat. Thanks for all your comments, and for posting a BUTT shot on your blog!!!!

Magda - Thanks for your congrats, you will make it too!! and the feeling is so worth it! Thanks for the e mail, I will get a chance to respond when I get back from my hols.

Ali - Great to meet you too. I'm looking forward to following your journey to your next comp.

Rae - Thanks rae, came in at the best I could be, thats all I needed to do for myself. Now I have areas to improve on and the work continues!

Hilary - have had this week off and eaten all the craving foods!! Yummy, my taste bids don't know whats happening! :)

Deb - thanks. Yes, I came in quite lean in my back. I am very pleased with my legs!! they just seemed to appear one day, it was great!

Liz - have taken this week of extra training, went straight back to teaching, in hindsight, should have aken the week off classes too!!

Livy - you can be powerul and strong, you must firstly BELIEVE you can make he change and the rest will follow.

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So whats been happening since last saturday's comp?

We flew home on Sunday at Midday, I had about 10 or so friends com round to my BYO Cake party and showed off my medal, trophy and some pics.

I went staright back into training on Monday with a hard back session with Hubby and then swiftly decided to take the week of extra training. I had all my classes to teach though so no rest for the wicked.

I had a bit of difcult from Tuesday onwards with exreme swelling and waer retention in my lower legs, SOOOOOOO painful!! Joints became swoleen and it hurt just to move, let alone walk.

They have gotten beter as the week goes on but still gave my pain when I had to teach Bodyatack this morning.

So, we are off on holiday tomorrow, north of Perth approx 800km to Kalbarri and Monkey Mia.

I can't wait for the week away, work has been pretty stresy with alot of change and sickness amognst instructors.

There is no rest for the wicked though as I am now 11 weeks 5 days out from comp!!

Yes you heard right, I'm going to compete again in the INBA WA State Titles on October 13th.

So officially in Prep again and will be documenting my journey on this blog again so please come along for the ride.

So a little cardio to do whilst away and we are taking all the weights we can reasonably fit in so I can train. Food is all prepared and ready to go in the esky in the morning.

Anyway I will update again once we return next weekend, will also have my first weeks skinfold results etc.

Hope you are all well, thanks for continuing to read and also Thanks again for your comments, they mean alot!

Shar x

Professional pics I had done - two weeks out from comp........

INBA All Females 2007 - Novice Figure (Class 1 - Short)

2007-07-16T01:05:00.000-07:00

Hey all

IT'S ALL OVER!!!!!

I made it to stage after a 16 week prep.
I placed second and am happy with how my posing wen, there are a few bits I could polish but of course you can only improve
After not really loking forward to doing my routine it was just so enjoyable and I won best routine
A personal overall sum up of my condition would be that I came in very lean and had good muscular shape and symetry but really need to build some muscular size. I am deinately looking forward to doing that and making impovements and at the end of the day that is how we develop and move forward. We all have our own starting point.

I have alot of other thoughts, comments, wants, needs, etc etc going on. This was always going to be my blog space to write my honest feelings and thoughts, BUT, right now I feel it's best I leave it with the summery above and have a few days to mull it all over.

Here's a few pics for those who are waiting....... THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT OVER THE LAST 16 WEEKS.

Front Double Bicep

Tricep Pose

Pose during routine

Back pose (backstage)

Just a THANK YOU to all those at the comp that were cheering me on and encouraging me.

I got to meet Sue, Di, Jodie, Ali, Jacinta, Jo, Hilde, Christy, Selina, Lia, Katie......... Probably have forgotten someone, not intentional if I did, sorry!!! I hope not as it was a pleasure to meet you all and have some support.

(Lia - your loud reminders to smile were so welcome!! )

To SAM.......

I cannot Thank you enough for your help, guidence, patience, attention and knowledge. You got me to stage and when I post the before pics you will see how far we have come!! You are a true gem. THANK YOU, my dream has been made real and I wil continue from here.

LOVE YA......... SHAR-D-O xx

PS ( Thanks for the cool routine!! I've been called a mini sam!! Poor you!)

Speak soon

Shar x

2 Days out

2007-07-11T10:43:00.000-07:00

Hey all,

my last post before I will be reporting some kind of results / pictures for you!

It is offically Thursday (VERY late Wednesday night!!) so I have 2 days to go!!

We have to be up at 5am to get to airport for 6am, ready to fly at 7am.

So have spent the night packing, sorting food, ensuring I haven't forgoten anything etc.

very tired and glad that today is done with.

Thanks for all your comments, those that are going, I'll see ya Saturday!! WOW I can't believ i's here!

Those that are watching via blog updates!! I'll get you some pics posted as soon as we are back home in Perth on Sunday arvo.

Shar x

4 days out and struggling!

2007-07-10T07:55:00.000-07:00

FIRSTLY THANKS SO MUCH FOR YOUR COMMENTS THEY
MEAN SO MUCH!!

I have to be honest as I said I would when I started this comp blog - but I am reallly struggling to hold it together tonight!

I'm hungry, i'm tired and not sleeping whatsoever, I'm still working, teaching and trying to be a mum, wife and daughter in law!

If i take a look back I am proud of where i have come from, i am proud that really I haven't had to many motivational problems, I haven't had any slip ups food wise and I have managed to get through without finding it hard.

Don't get me wrong I wasn't expecting an easy ride in the last week but it seems to have just walked up and smacked me in the face big time!
Sorry for the moan but I thought i would share my feelings.

I will go to bed, try and sleep and pull it together for another day ahead.

I taught at 6.15am this morning, did cardio, trained shoulders, work a few hours, then headed into the city to teach a Bodybalance and a Bodyattack.

I was waxed from top to toe today, not as bad as the first time. I have nails and pedicure tomorrow which will be 1 and a 1/2 hours of bliss so I have that to look forward to.

Tomorrow I have a weights session, Bodyattack class and Bodybalance to teach in the morning, a tanning session and then my final Bodyattack class in the evening to teach.

Hope you are all well and I would love to respond to everyone individualy but just can't right now. Please know that your comments are appreciated!!

Shar x

HELLO LEGS!!! - 5 Days Out

2007-07-09T08:01:00.000-07:00

Hey all

Well I'm back from Sydney work trip and I coped!! training was all done whilst away, food was absolutely perfect and I am so proud of myself for pulling it all together.

Also................. I won GFM of the year for WA!! Go me!

Thanks for all your comments and Thanks to Liz for your e mail wishing me luck on Saturday
I am really looking forward to meeting you all but a little worried I won't get much time on the day!

Anyway, just a quick one as I am fading fast, the changes have really affected my energy levels.

I'll try and update tomorrow and give you a little more info re: prep and results at this stage.

Lets just say 'SARGE' seems happy with how I've come in and my legs are well and truly here!!! YAY!!!
Put it this way i NEVER wear shorts for my classes etc, but Sunday I put my 'one week out from comp' shorts on!! They will only ever be worn during this time but will definately be worn as much as possible!!

In-laws arrived from the UK today and all is going to plan..................JUST!!

Speak soon
Shar x

10 days out!!! Someone pinch me!!

2007-07-03T11:00:00.000-07:00

So the time is flying by faster and faster!!
I head off to Sydney wednesday for the Fitness First Conference. Have spent pretty much all evening double checking my food, cooking the last few bits and pieces.

Will throw some clothes, (which I had to go and buy as I have nothing that its!!) in the case just before I leave for the airport knowing me!

So update time.......

Weight dropped agian this week, lightest and smallest I have ever been!! still holding my measurements and skinfolds down slightly.

Sam actually gave me a little extra food this week!! CAN't BE BAD HEY!!!?

Will be back from Sydney on Saturday arvo, drive to Sam and have my last session wth her until I meet up with her in Melbourne.

Got my training instructions and a few diet instructions for the rest of the prep now and all the finer stuff will be given on saturday when I see sam. Depletion starts on Sunday.

I'm not sleeping at all now, very disturbed, tossing and turning, waking up in sweats, weing all the time too etc etc. a bit concerned that if it goes on for much longer before I get a good nights sleep i'll get sick or so exhausted i'll mess it all up.

OH YEAH, if anyone in PERTH wants / needs a photographer please let me know, I had the most amazing time when I had my pics done and the shots are just amazing!! Not of me but the photography is stunning! will post a few soon..........

Anyway, must go to bed, its 2am!!! and I'm not tired, whats with that????????

Bodyattack to teach in the morning so I hope I can sumonds the energy from somewhere when I wake up after 4 hours sleep and have to go crazey for a studio of people :)

Have a good week all and I'll blog again as soon as I can.

Shar x

Chrismas in July......... well, nearly July!!

2007-06-27T09:11:00.000-07:00

Thats what it felt

like as I opened

my express satchel

from Jo Rogers!!!!

MY KINI IS HERE!!!!!!!!! and it is just devine, gorgeous, stunning etc etc..... Well I like it anyway!! :)

Just a quick update........................

17 DAYS OUT

All going well, was going to post some pics but have decided against it for a few reasons.

Starting to get all organised, about time hey!!

All relevent appointments are booked, waxing, nails, been tanning regularly for the last two weeks and will continue with that up to the day I fly to Melbourne.

Just got to get some jewellery and dream tan and all purchases are made. Will do this on Sunday, its hubby's birthday and we have got a babysitter and will go into the city for a Sunday arvo shopping session!!

Getting hair and make up done on Saturday and some prof pics, was going to the beach but the weather in Perth is not up to alot right now so praying for some dry days ready for Saturday, keep your fingers crossed for me.

Work conference next week in Sydney, from Wednesday to Saturday, all food is prepared, bagged etc so feeling good about that. Also have to train whilst there but have any Fitness First to choose from obviously, can' wait, always good to go to other clubs.

Still got energy for my Cardio and Bodyattack classes???? thought i would be hitting some kind of wall soon but feeling really good physically, can't say the same mentally!! Getting a bit, what I would call 'ditzy'.

I am not hungry and not had any specific cravings this week like last week, although could still eat peanut butter out of the jar with a spoon!! :)

Scales have dropped again, got this morning, shouldn't have as I seem to have broken my cycle of daily weighing, but now I'm curious again!!

Seeing Sam on Saturday so I wondered what changes are coming my way this week!! OOOOOhh I can't wait!!! Only joking Sarge!

Anyway, must get some sleep although I'm not tired and my mind is just doing overtime!

Need to try meditation like Jodie.

Have a great Thursday and Friday and I hope to update at the weekend.

Shar x

23 Days out

2007-06-21T01:11:00.000-07:00

Hey all

So the days are passing me by! I don't actually think I realize wha's going on? Does that make sense to those that can remember their first comp prep?

I sort of feel that I'm on this road and although I know what direction I'm heading I'm not quite sure what the outcome will be or mean to me?

I am just planning each week with Sam and Hubby, putting it on my schedule, the schedule then gets printed up, put on the 'Comp Notice Board' and thats whats happens, come hell or high water, workouts get done, food is prepared and eaten as prescribed.

And that is how it has been since the day my 16 weeks prep started. Not one missed session, not one meal missed, no cheats, I've done everything i'm told. Perhaps in the first few weeks the only thing I could have improved on was intensity of weights sessions but still I trained hard, just found out it wasn't quite up there when I started having my sessions with Hubby.

I am not writing all this to boast or glote, just so I can try and understand what has been going on the last 13 weeks!! I feel like I'm in a bubble and everyone else is just doing what they do in there lives and I'm just doing what my life requires right now.

Perhaps it will all hit in soon, but even just reading this back now I still feel kind of fuzzy.

Anyway, energy levels are good, training good this week, not hungry just starting to crave..............................................Biscuits,

in particular Custard creams

Also and quite badly wanting this........ a maple and pecan tart, with freash cream or custard or perhaps both I don't think I care!! :)

Anyway mouth is watering!!

So to my comments from last post -

DI - Thanks for being excited for me!! as I don' seem to be for myself? Also dissapointed I won't get to met with you I thought you were coming, oh well next time. :)

Stacey - I will post a picture of me at my heaviest for you at the end of this post. Thanks for dropping by, I'm following your journey too!

HILDS, KELLY and SELINA - can't believe I will get to meet you all, sounds like I may have a few cheers to help my hubby out???? :)

Bev - Thanks for the comment Bev, good to see you back in blog land and will still be following your journey. Great news about becoming Reps in WA for the new Federation, had an e mail saying perhaps a show for WA later in the Year, count me in!!

PIP - thanks for coming to Bodyattack on a Tuesday, great to hear you enjoy your clas, thats the main thing and the reason I love to instruct, if we can make exercise fun whilst getting results then what better outcome!

Anyway all, better go and pick up my little girl, full on night ahead, more unpacking.................

Food shopping, with kids in tow!!!!!, dinner to prepare for them and Paul when he gets in late, and me to sort out for a busy day tomorrow.

Speak soon

Shar x

For Stacey and Hilds - Shar at 100kg..............

26 DAYS OUT!! What the??!!#**

2007-06-18T08:57:00.000-07:00

26 days, 26 days, 26 days, 26 days......have to keep saying it, can't believe where the time is going and also that I need to get this butt into better shape in so little time!! ARRGGGHHHHH!!

So whats been going on in the world of Shar's prep.

Weights - 4 time per week
Bodyattack - 5 per week now
Bodybalance - 4 this week
CARDIO - 6 sessions this week

Everything is running to plan, had my usual Saturday session with SARGE (the name is definately SARGE NOW!!) and don't tell her :) but her guard came down a couple of times when she had me posing and she got a little excited - stating ' oh I'm so excited for you, your looking good'..............didn't last long though and she was back to shouting out the commands!!

Then came the diet assessment! definately a Sarge then! mixing it up a bit as of last week and seems to be working, I can feel my metabolism firing!

I am struggling a bit with holding the poses for any period of time so have alot of work to put in from now until comp day to get the body used to it.
Routine is done and dusted now, just practice, practice, practice. I love it and Sam is so cool at all that stuff.

Legs have come in a bit again this week and Sam reakons my butt has too, i'm getting the skin thing happening though, from where I have been 100kg twice and back down, goosey loosey on the ass I'm afraid, not alot I can do about that.

26 days, 26 days, 26 days........... oh there i go again, sorry :)

Alot been happening, moving, what a bloody nightmere! I have a interstate trip for 4 days with work a week out from comp! then my in-laws arrive! thats actually not a bad thing, just have to have the house sorted by then, then Paul and I will be flying to Melbourne on the Thursday before comp.

I was soooooo stressy last week, but have tried and suceeded in adopting the mindshift of - what seems like the end of the world now won't do in an hour, breath, chill and don't let it beat you.
Since trying that I have remained calmer and have found focus again this week, I was letting other shit take my mind away and at this stage, THAT CAN'T HAPPEN!!

I am getting some pics done at 2 weeks out from comp by a client of Paul's, this is super exciting for me, I've booked my hair and make up with Maurice Meade and will tan up a little more, some beach shots are on the cards. Gonna freeze my *##! off though!

Anyway, feeling tired now so will get some ZZZZZZZZZZZ's

Will update again soon......

Shar x

2007-06-14T18:45:00.000-07:00

Hey all, am right in the middle of moving major disruption to phoneline, internet etc. so thats where I have been!! I have quickly 'found' a computer to allow me to blog these that I had written and cut and pasted in. will try my best to keep blogging as my journey is now only 4 weeks out and coming to the crunchtime.
Two posts below. Shar x

5 weeks out – Saturday 9th June 2007

So had my session with Sarge on Saturday. Skinfolds have dropped on my lower half this week and Sam said she can definitely see the difference.

Had a cardio change last week so this may be making the difference, I can certainly feel the difference when doing it!!

Also had a few diet changes last week so that may also be showing this week, I had a loss on the scales again so change is occurring.

I went through all my posing and we got a good chunk of my routine done and dusted.

Not looking forward to the next week, I’ll be four weeks out and I know there are some bigger changes coming to both training and diet. Got to try and focus and stay positive although it is getting to me a bit now and I am almost daily asking myself whether its all worth it, then I have a complete change and think all positive, telling myself - I’m so close and have done 12 weeks prep already what’s another 4 !

Have been moving this week and I’m finding that very stressful and draining, us virgo’s don’t like to be all up in the air!! Stuff unpacked etc. :)

So seeing as its not long now I’m starting to get my lists together and make sure I’m all sorted. Thanks to Sam and Lia who when replying to my Calling all figure girls and backstage bitches post sent me through a checklist via e mail!! Thanks again to all those that either e mailed me or posted it on there blog, it has been enlightening and very helpful.

Peanuts and who’s coming to the ALL FEMALES!!

I so fancy a bowl of nuts and in particular salted peanuts!!! As you know I love peanut butter and have craved that right from the start on a slice of hot wholemeal toast.

But now I just want peanuts.

Also, just wanted to ask who’s coming to the ALL FEMALES?

Who’s competeing and who’s spectating??

I’m getting excited, I get to meet SUE after working with her via e mail for over a year and also JODIE another inspirational woman!!

Am I gonna get to meet anyone else from blog land??

Hopefully I'll get to blog again over the weekend with my 4 week out report from SARGE!!

Calling all Figure Girls and Backstage Bit*#es

2007-06-07T00:04:00.000-07:00

OK so two posts in two days, 'what's going on' I hear you cry!! :)

But this is a request for all you veteran compers to don your thinking hats and give me some great tips and advice for my upcoming FIRST COMP!! ..... Please?

I thought it would be great to gather as much info as possible in relation to the week prior to comp and comp day itself, so, if you would like to help me on my way :) tell me what worked for you.
Previous Backstage Bit*#es, you can tell me anything you can about things I need to make sure I have to ensure a smooth prep to the stage!!
I know it is a very individual thing but I figure its best to be aware of everything than nothing!!

So, if you would like to offer some tips and advice my way please e mail me the following (cut and paste if you wish) to sharleyinoz@yahoo.co.uk

Top 2 Diet Tips or Advice:
1)
2)

Top 2 Training Tips or Advice:
1)
2)

Top 2 Beauty / Make up / Hair Tips or Advice:
1)
2)

Top 2 Tips on mentally coping!!!!
1)
2)

Your Best Bit of Advice:

This will not only benefit me but also the other Novices amongst us.
I look forward to my e mail being full!!

THANKS GIRLS!
SHAR X

5 Weeks 3 days Out

2007-06-05T07:48:00.001-07:00

This will just be a quickie to say all is well and that I just have no idea where the time is going!!

I'm actually getting a little scared now!! it will be here before I know it!!

The sore throat did turn out to make me a little off colour, had to xcover a few Bodyattack classes as I just couldn't summonds the energy to do them, throat was like a razor blade and I now have a cold, but apart from that I'm all good

Great session with Sam on Saturday just gone, the 'sarge' is starting to make her presence known though!! a few stern looks, a few blunt answers but also lots of giggling!!

I am now having to pose in my kini bottoms and at 4 weeks out she wants me in a G!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my god, i'm really not sure if I ever thought I would make it, but here i am and the dreaded G is approaching.

Bodyfat is at an all time low!!! Sam's impressed with the stirations (wrongly spelt!!) in my shoulders, scales are dropping again and changes were a plenty this week due to the 6 week mark.

My legs are finally giving it up!! YAY!! Feeling very small (probably coz I am!) and lean, although the leg and butt region do have a little more to drop to get into line with everywhere else.

Diet has had a shake up this week and I think the changes are gonna make all the difference. Not feeling deprived yet though.

Had 3 great weights sessions this week already and only have 1 top go before Saturday when my week rolls around again.

Ok, so thats me and where i'm at right now. I will hopefully post again on Saturday and then I may be offline for a week or so due to MOVING HOUSE, I can't believe i'm doing it!! oh well will make a few weeks very busy and fly by even quicker! :)

Hope you are all well and thanks for all your comments on my last post.

Speak soon
Shar x

7 week out

2007-05-29T07:26:00.000-07:00

Once again, I'm a little behind when I post , always plan on updating on a Saturday but never seem to get to it!
So 6 weeks 4 days out as of today.

Going well, posing has changed slightly again to suit my changes in body, I still have hip flexors that can come out to play on demand!!

Spent some of my session with Sam on Saturday, laughing so thats all good for the abs!! We were laughing about how hard it is to shave your armpits when you are lean!! its like a big hollow and you have to do some weird things to not cut yourself! I said if I talk into mine I get an echo......echo.......echo......:)

Weight has stabilized with a little increase this week of 0.6. this is good though. My bodyfat is still dropping and coming off my legs slowly but surely.

Starting to find cardio a bit of a chore!! but teaching as much BA as I do helps.

Weights are good just have to stay focussed whilst in gym otherwise I drift off and stop giving everything!!

Here is an updated picture..........

this was taken

on Saturday -

so 7 weeks out

This one was taken at 8 weeks out..........

Anyways, hope your all well, been visiting blogs just not commenting!! :(

Must go to bed now as the whole house has had a bad cold and I haven't but have got a sore throat approaching!! Fingers crossed a good nights slepp will help.

Shar x

8 WEEKS OUT

2007-05-21T08:06:00.000-07:00

Well - Virgo inside says '7 Weeks 5 days actually Shar!'

But who's counting! :)

Anyway update time. The last week has been a little testing to say the least.

Work, Kids, house probs, Les Mills Launch time, tiredness, training etc etc, but you know what. WHO CARES? anyone out there care? no, not really, do I want anyone to care? no not really.

I made the choice to compete, I made the choice to turn around a dream and make it reality, so what the hell am I doing harping on that, I'm tired, that I'm busy, that there's other shit to deal with.

Just shut up, stay positive and focussed and get on with it.

With help and guidence from Super Sam, my mumma, my husband, my dad (helping with kids), a few supportive work friends, I AM DOING THIS! and i'll be damned if anything or anyone is going to stop me.

I also have even more incentive now too!! I haven't really e mailed much info home to my mum or sis in the UK, like updates etc as I have wanted to have some progress to show.
So I did last week e mail some before and after pics and an update, I also e mailed my mum the link to this blog.

She has since comeback, as any mum would might I add :) with some great comments and total and unconditional love and positivity that it made me cry.
You see, in her day!! ;) my mumma trained and would have loved to make it to the stage, but for various reasons didn't, but she appreciates what it takes to be on this journey.

So Mumma, if your reading this post, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU DREADFULLY, Your path through life hasn't been easy but you are so strong, I have learnt alot from you, sometimes I took the long way round but always ended up in the direction you pointed me in the first place.
THANK YOU for your positive energy and with your strength behind me I can do this! x

So moving forward this week, Sam seems pleased with how I am at this stage out. I have a long prep! 16 weeks and I'm half way!! 8 down, 8 to go.

I still have my hip flexors when I grimice enough! and she even made me wear bikini bottoms not shorts last week so we could see them more!!
Skinfolds have held as is on top half, still dropping a little on bottom half and measurements are dropping still downstairs YAY!!
Weight has slowed a little but thats cool.
I have been down through my clothes and made it to my Small clothes section of the wardrobe about 3 weeks ago, last week I was wearing baggy small clothes!! and now I have new Small, small, clothes!
Infact if I want to go lower in black pants I will have to start looking in other shops than the regulars as I have no idea where to get small, small clothes from.

Anyways, thats about it from me tonight, sleep is needed! cardio first thing tomorrow, then Bodyattack and Bodybalance classes in morning, then another Bodyattack tomorrow night! but hey, I'M NOT MOANING!! :) :)

Speak soon, I am doing the reading rounds of blogs just limited time to comment will make sure I get some in this week!

SHAR X

OMG!!!!!!

2007-05-15T08:10:00.000-07:00

8 weeks 3 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What the ????

UPDATE TIME!!

2007-05-13T07:18:00.000-07:00

10 Weeks Out and 9 Weeks Out

Ok, ok, I'm sorry to my 'daily diary'!! or not so daily!!

Firstly - THANKS SOOOOOOOO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR COMMENTS!! its so great to hear from you all.

So overview for Week from 11 Weeks Out to 10 Weeks Out :
4 Weights sessions
7 Cardio Sessions - geting a bit over it if I don't just get on and do it asap!!
6 Bodyattack Classes taught
4 Bodybalance Classes taught

So overview for Week from 10 Weeks Out to 9 Weeks Out :
4 Weights sessions - Finding that my strength is dropping a little. Had a bit of an issue when training legs this week!! I got so tired and stated crying in the gym!!!!!
6 Cardio Sessions - Found these fine this week
7 Bodyattack Classes taught - Energy dropping by the end of my week
4 Bodybalance Classes taught

So now I have filled you in on my activity for the last 2 weeks here's my stats again:

Stats so far
Bodyfat down approx 12.5% (callipers used for monitoring of BF)
10.8 kg in scale weight
Total of 50cm off accross all measurement sites ( Arms, Waist, Hips, Thighs and calfs)

So how am I feeling?

Still really organised with all food prep, planning sessions accross the week etc.

This week I have continued to feel strong BUT riday I had a very emotional and tiring day and I just fely zapped.
Previously I would have thought I NEED food to perk me up but I haven't even considered food as a crutch, I was wanting to just rest, sit down and not do anything as a posed to eating. I see this as a very positive step for me on my journey.

Posing practice was good with Sam on Saturday and she has changed a couple of poses to suit me now my legs are changing shape, yep you heard right!! my legs are finally coming down!! AND I HAVE HIP FLEXORS THAT I CAN FLEX!!! even though Sam had to remind me to not pull a face whilst doing so!!

MY ROUTINE is coming along nicely and I'm so pleased with our final choice of song.

So not a bad week but not the best the way I finished zapped.

Have pulled my positive focus back and am back on track emotionally, feeling very strong, dedicated and proud of myself today.

Looking forward to tomorrow, Lots of cardio to do, a weights session, new Les Millls chorie to learn, sunbed to have, kids to sort, work, hubby out all day and evening, but hey, whats life without a challenge??

BRING IT ON!!!

Shar x
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Believe in yourself
and all that you are.
Know that there is
something inside you
that is greater than
any obstacle.
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Christian D Larson

11 weeks out - Stats & Update

2007-04-29T01:43:00.000-07:00

5 weeks down - 11 to go

(well the virgo in me says 10 weeks 6 days to be exact!! Sorry Sam!!)

So overview for the last week:

4 Weights sessions - Pushed hard and worked to max

6 Cardio Sessions - Found these fine this week

6 Bodyattack Classes taught - had good energy for all :)

4 Bodybalance Classes taught - So looooveeerrly to teach.

My food plan isn't changing alot at the moment, Sam and I had a chat and found that we are both in agreement to leave alone if its working for me, both taste wise and nurition content wise.

What's the saying ' if it ain't broke, don't fix it'!! This is great for me as then I know what to buy, what to cook, what to prepare and everything is in control, another virgo trait I think!

I have just finished cooking the last of the four big trays of chicken!! (hubby's aswell!) done my turkey, just going to get stuck into peeling and chopping up my sweet pots. As i know there is no major changes coming for the next few weeks I brought more and I am a bit ahead of myself and the freezer is getting near to max!.

I have just gone through my schedule for the week (Saturday - Friday) all sessions planned and appts booked with hubby for my weights.

I taught my regular two classes this morning, a Bodyattack and Bodybalance and I had the pleasure of teaching Sam!! As you know she is a Bodyattack instructor and I always worry about teaching other instructors!! let alone if you think they are eyeing up what we need to work on for the next 11 weeks!! She also stayed for Bodybalance which at times was being adapted very well by her due to her shoulder!

Alot more comments coming this week from members in my classes, other staff members etc. as believe it or not my Abs are showing through already!! YAY!! Sam said she was impressed how my abs and upper body are comin in for this stage.

We did posing today after classes. Starting to feel better with it and just need to practice the flow between a little more.

We continue to go through my routine and got quite a bit done today. My carpet burns today have now got floorboard burns on top!! Sam had to point out that I was bleeding !! That just shows the dedication! Practice practice practice till I bleed. Solid as a rock! :)

Bodyfat, measurements and small weight change again this week.

Stats so far

Bodyfat down approx 9% (callipers used for monitoring of BF)

9.4kg in scale weight

Total of 45cm off accross all measurement sites ( Arms, Waist, Hips, Thighs and calfs)

Some back shots to show progress, taken

at 16 weeks out, 14 weeks out and finally 11 weeks out.......

So thats about it for my past week in comp prep, happy with it all, going

with the flow and trying to enjoy the process, 10 weeks 6 days to go,

where is the time going????

Hope you are all well

SHAR X

12 weeks out

2007-04-22T07:11:00.000-07:00

Well 11 weeks 6 days actually!!

Wow, where is the time going. . . . . . .

So how am I feeling?

Today I feel organised. I have cooked up all my food for the week, plus some.
My schedule for the week (Saturday - Friday) is well under way with 1 weights done and two cardios. Also taught two classes this morning, a Bodyattack and Bodybalance.

This week I have felt strong, in control and positive still but worried I have started to worry I haven't got enough muscle. I have been working hard with all my training etc but now my weight and bodyfat (which seems to be dropping fast!) is coming off I am feeling small.

Also this week I have had the most amounts of comments so far, members in my classes, other staff members etc. All good, stating 'what have you been doing, you look really good'. So this is good as it means the changes are coming and thats great now I'm at 12 weeks out.

Posing practice was good, felt a little better, still need more 'BUTT' lift in most poses.

HAVE STARTED MY ROUTINE!!!!! Not really something to get excited about????
TO A GROUP FITNESS INSTRUCTOR IT IS!!!! :)
We only did the first tincy bit, but Ialready love it!! I have carpet burns on the top of my feet from practice, the studio we use to meet in has carpeted floor, I will definately be wearing socks next week.

Bodyfat, measurements and weight all dropped again this week, I'm enjoying the progress but Sam has warned me it will slow down so i'l enjoy it whilst its happening and be ready to push hard when needed.

Weeks Overview
4 Weights sessions - Pushed hard and worked to max
6 Cardio Sessions - Found these fine this week
8 Bodyattack Classes taught - This was tough, I'm not a lover of putting my body through more than a max of 6 Bodyattacks per week, let alone teaching them to the max. ALTHOUGH - they have become easier as my weight has dropped quite alot in the past four weks and I'm not lugging that extra about!! YAY!
6 Bodybalance Classes taught - Had a great week of Bodybalance classes, a really great class to conteract everything else I do.

Anyway's off to bed, sleep is energy for body and soul.
Shar x

I thought I'd show you a pic of my cross off chart!!!
Each day I get through ON PLAN, I get a cross.
So far all days have a cross and now there is a few good rows crossed, I'll be damned if I coming off plan now and obviously it shows me how many days I have left to my first comp!!
I also have other days that are important to me listed.

Week 14 - Weekly Report

2007-04-15T06:51:00.000-07:00

Last weeks overview (Week 14 to Week 13)

Last week was a tiring week exercise wise, I was feeling sick with a sore throat by Tuesday and knew I was fighting something. I still did all sessions and taught all classes.

4 Weights sessions
6 Cardio Sessions
7 Bodyattack Classes taught
5 Bodybalance Classes taught

Had posing / diet change session with Sam again and felt a little happier than the first week!!
Still a bit wobbly on the shoes. We made a final decision about my music for my routine which is cool as I can't wait to see what Sam comes up with.

Finally my cold is subsiding and I'm ready to go ahead into another week and see changes happening to my body as I go. I feel so far away but I know time is flying at the moment so will make the most of every day, every workout etc.

Shar x

12 weeks 6 days out

2007-04-15T04:19:00.000-07:00

Day 23 of 112

So, another week down. Week 3 went well again. 13 to go.

So here comes some honest thought and feelings I said I would have in this blog.

Why do I feel strong, focussed and in control??? In all honesty it is worrying me.

I have had years and years of the total opposite.....feeling weak, unfocussed and so out of control sometimes I'm not sure how I didn't balloon to 100kgs more than twice!

I do understand that, yes, I have only done 3 weeks, and to some this is a meesley amount of time.

BUT let me tell you I can honestly say even when I have dieted and exercised my way down from 100kgs to 55kg twice, even when I was following weight watchers, even when I lost 11kgs at the end of last year, I have NEVER stuck to it totally all day every day for more than 6 days!!

I would always have a free meal, which turned into a free day and most of the time I would do that on a Saturday, so my mind is that messed up from years of yo-yoing that I would right off Sunday and binge all day, ready to 'START ON MONDAY', the good old classic diet starting day.

I have alot of other demons I could run on about but I hope the above explains a little as to why I'm wondering where the hell has this commitment come from and I also worry that I'm just gonna crash and burn any minute now.

Perhaps I do really want this, perhaps I have something to prove to myself, perhaps I have changed my mindset..................... perhaps, I've doubted myself for too long and I am stronger than I think?

I am just so used to feeling inferior, a lesser person, a fake in my industry, a crap role model for my daughter and a whole heap of other shit.

BUT just writing this down has opened my eyes, reading back through this post has made me realise...........
WHY WORRY ABOUT IT!!!!!!! If i'm doing it now, if i'm focussed and strong, harness it and move forward and maybe, just maybe I can make this dream a reality.

Shar x
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Believe in yourself and
all that you are.
Know that there is
something inside you
that is greater than
any obstacle.
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Christian D Larson

I'm so excited.....and I just can't hide it.....

2007-04-08T23:24:00.000-07:00

POSING!!!

So in my last post I mentioned I now start to meet Sam every Saturday for Posing, Routine practice and any changes etc.

I had such a cool time!!! but so much to remember!

So many positions to try so SAMO could choose the best position for my body type. It takes alot out of you doesn't it?!! and yes Sam I did have a achey lower back from all the tilting of my hips!!

We also went through my shortlist (or not so shortlist! :) ) for my routine music and I can't wait to see what Sam picks.

I came away pumped and ready to go for another week.

I also have to take my skinfolds every 2nd week, which was this week and they have dropped, my weight has also dropped in the first two weeks which I would expect it to.

Have struggled a little this weekend due to the choc about for the kids but have remained positive.

So far I have had a Wedding, Easter and Friend BBQ to get through and I have done it all really well. I am so proud of myself.
Having used excuse after excuse last year, wasted my time, energy and emotions fighting myself to get into shape, I finally did it at the end of the year.
It felt good, I felt strong and in control and I'm please to say after a shakey start to the year nutrition wise in Jan, Feb & March, I have found my head space again.

I am so excited about this journey and hopefully cap it of with ending up on the stage looking in reasonable condition in the Novice division

I also feel very lucky to have Sam as my coach.

Speak soon

Shar x

14 Weeks Out

2007-04-06T07:43:00.000-07:00

Day 14 of 112

So, from day 1 to day 14!!

Two whole weeks completed and man can I feel a difference in my body and mind.

Am now eating all 7 meals on plan and am hungrey!! My metabolism must be starting to fire up.

Have been quite positive about it all since making that decision at 16 weeks out, must have been the do or die situation, always knew that my comp prep was starting then.

I can honestly say I have NEVER, EVER completed any diet or food plan for 14 days continuos. I have always had a free meal r treat at a certain point. So this is a big progression for me already.

Week 16 went well, had a wedding on day 7. Jen (the bride) knows I am prepping and had arranged for my food to be different! how kind!. I had grilled fish and steamed veggies, all approved by Sam as we were sat on the same table!

The cardio has been hard to fit in but all is good as long as I plan the whole week ahead, I can't miss a session as due to classes etc I have no scope to make it up anywhere else.

Week 15 has been good too. I had a course last weekend and that was a challenging time as I had to do cardio before and after two very long tiring days.

Weeks overview
4 Weights sessions
8 Cardio Sessions
7 Bodyattack Classes taught
3 Bodybalance Classes taught

So Week 14 begins tomorrow, as does my now weekly session with Sam, covering posing, routine, diet changes etc.
Having skin folds done tomorrow so will post the results soon.

Shar x

16 Weeks Out

2007-03-24T05:58:00.000-07:00

Day 1 of 112

So, 16 weeks is here!

The past few weeks have been tough, I have been doing the self doubt thing and wondering if this is what I want to d, if I can actually do this etc etc.

Have had good chats with Hubby, took the time to write whys and why nots down and came to
the conclusion to do it and give it my best shot.

So I have set this blog up in addition to my other one to allow me to track and kep a diary of how I really feel, be totally honest, if it gets deep that's cool, if I don't have alot to say that's cool aswell.

Just somewhere to document my full journey, also somewhere that I can come back to during or after I'm done.

So felt strong today, have started to think of food as my fuel, food for my muscles, food to keep my body functioning. Ok so I might not feel like eating the 8th meal of the day but I know why I should and what the benefits will be to get me to the end of this road in the best possible condition that I can be in right now.

I trained legs today and went really hard, Paul put me through it and mixed it up a bit, I can feel the soreness creeping in already! YAY!

Did 45 minutes of cardio on the treaddie at home.

Feeling a little flat emotionally, a little teary? have no idea why. Missing my mum alot, perhaps that is just making me fel uneasy?

Anyway, all in all a good day.

Shar x